Changing Terminology!

Perhaps one thing sometimes pushes you the most and you know you're sort of crossing all lines but your personal story becomes a difficult thing to handle when you're dealing with such situations! Situations arise everywhere! Some people push you, others try to keep you at the back. Some give sincere ideas others give big flops! No idea when you get tensed what to do what not to do!
Perhaps at that time one has a friend on which he could count on! On which he has faith on which he can always feel continued support! And in my heart i know there is someone who knows Farhan Virk well. Atleast i really do think and it's fine. Me sleepy! Bye world.
Will see ya!

My feelings on 21/1/2011:

Perhaps i've done so many things that it becomes rather impossible for me to judge someone's feelings! I'm not a normal person. I'm not like others! These questions still tease me. The boy besides me supports me. Everyone is like a big fan but perhaps, fate is taking my examination! What appeared to be a great joke lies like a reality infront of me! It's not an ordinary feeling, it's a feeling as if someone is trying to control my heart. Should i stay silent or should i speak? Should i lie idle or should i stand up and do something?
Perhaps i got many options in front of me but it becomes difficult to decide most of the time! It's similar to a black shadow trying to gather my control. If my friend Azhar was here with me as my supporter as my bro, if my bro umar,ahsan, husham etc were with me! Things would have been different but i'm feeling lonely because of this situation , emptiness and perhaps lazyness too. Perhaps i'm missing my old friends! Perhaps i'm missing my new friends! Too deep to think of it and so harsh to leave it! Consensus isn't write but i've got some followers and that makes me feel better. Sadness coming out of my words! Will have to let you tolerate. I'm gonna sleep and pray for something good.
Help me! Allah